When it FINALLY clicks that I AM ENOUGH, and everything within and outside of me in EVERY AND ALL WAYS, is always enough!⁣
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*DOI!* 🤪⁣
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“Phoebe, you are too hard on yourself.”⁣
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“What! Phoebe, you are amazing!”⁣
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“Phoebe, you are an inspiration to thousands!”⁣
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“Phoebe, why is nothing ever good enough?”⁣
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“Phoebe, everyone can see how talented you are, but yourself!”⁣
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“Phoebe, why does everything have to be so extreme?”⁣
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“Phoebe, can’t you chill?”⁣
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“Phoebe, do you really need more tattoos?” ⁣
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“Phoebe, you live the dream life, what more do you want?””⁣
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“Phoebe, we love you, why don’t you believe us?”⁣
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“Phoebe, why are you so hard on us?”⁣
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HOW MUCH IS ENOUGH?⁣
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How much is enough when your bar goes up, with every achievement? How much is enough when you never set yourself a bar? ⁣
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I have been chasing myself around with a whip and no resting place in sight.⁣
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How much is enough?⁣
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I’ve been told over and over and over, but with this wonderful new belief (I discovered in Mikis Hasson’s book “Choice Os - The Path To Homodelectus”) it finally clicked!⁣
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🌟 WHATEVER IS HERE IS ALWAYS ENOUGH! 🌟 ⁣
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I looked at myself in the mirror and everything about me was beautiful. ⁣
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I was alive!⁣
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My first Dutch braid I just weaved into my hair, I no longer wanted to rip out because it was ugly. I now cried at it’s glory.⁣
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I picked up my sweet Ukulele, Kala, and I could play! I could sing!⁣
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I went into the living room and my husband, my best friend, was laying on the couch, but now, he was an angel.⁣
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I can feel life inside and around me. ⁣
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I can feel love for the people in my world!⁣
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I am GRATEFUL that I have lived with this dragon for most of my life, for it has made me who I am. I am MAGNIFICENT because I searched for that golden place that I thought existed. I pushed myself into areas, that most will never dare, but now...⁣
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I AM FREE. ⁣
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(what a relief.)⁣

​South African inspired ‘Heart Bloom’ piece for my mother-in-love. ⁣
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I’m pleased with how I was able to really feel and capture the essence of this land and her heart, through my own.⁣

Hubby and I ventured out to the #Karoo in South Africa to photograph his latest painting exhibit 'kaarte van die Karoo' that he painted on this very land, years prior.

He reveals a new painting everyday on his Instagram page:
@hollander_art
Hoping to sell the collection of 35 paintings to one lucky buyer! ⁣
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Here are some behind the scenes from our fun, dusty, day in the sun. ⁣
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