It is the last day of March, time to check in on how I have done this month with money.

This is my second #ByeDebt blog, here is the link to the start of my journey.
http://www.mymythiclife.com/home/archives/02-2019

I have been in credit card debt for years, but at the rate I am going, this journey should actually be over quite swiftly! I'm so grateful for this time of discipline, while working for minimum wage. It is forcing me to LOOK at my spending habits and learn to be less "airy fairy" and more realistic. Money smart! I am very fortunate to have the opportunity to live with practically no bills (besides my car / phone) right now, to help move me up and onwards!

Let's check in.
​I am back at the coffee shop, here on Haida Gwaii!

If you have been following My Mythic Life here, or through Instagram (@phoebedykstra) you will already know how grateful I am for this job as it is helping me in a multitude of ways.
By choice, I am working 4 days a week.
I have been promoted to weekend manager!
I make just over minimum wage.
Guess how much money I made in tips this month?! (I am keeping track in the "Monefy" app)
In 18 shifts (slow season - tourist season is right around the corner!) = $805.00 (average $44 a day)
This is much more than an extra paycheque!!
Thank you Masset, BC for being so generous!

How am I doing with spending?

I'm extremely disciplined, eyes set on the prize!
I purchase only the essentials at the grocery store.
I look for the best price, I choose no name brand!
*I put an exclamation because, past Phoebe would not have been caught dead / would have barfed in her mouth at the thought.*
I do not plan to live like this forever, but I am taking this lesson, to get money smart, seriously.
Luckily for me, my mother's highest happiness is nourishing her family and she also happens to be an AWESOME chef!
Making my grocery bills are low, when prices are higher here than anywhere I've lived. #islandlife

I am not shopping.
When tempted, I ask myself why I am wanting to shop.
It took me 2 weeks of borrowing my mom's broom, pondering if I should buy one then comparing prices on the island, before I bought one! Do I need a dust pan? Yes, Phoebe, go for it.

Alright, so, I have had 2 paycheques since I checked in at the end of last month. 
From each paycheque I put $400 towards my credit card.
In total, this month I was able to put $800 towards my credit card!
I had $91.27 in interest charges as well I purchased my own song on Itunes!! (http://www.mymythiclife.com/home/my-1st-song)

OWING TO MY CREDIT CARD:

FEBRUARY. 28, 2019 - $5,798.18
MARCH. 3, 2019 - $4,892.33

I ROCK!

It took me 1 year to get this credit card from maxed at $9,000 to here because I didn't make any spending changes!

I have a goal of being debt free, having my own money, #BYEDEBT by my 31st birthday, July. 29.
​I intend it to be be much sooner!

I have been getting a lot of positive feedback from people who are also motivated, on this journey. People who are straight up thankful that I am openly talking about this, often tip-toed around, ignored, VERY COMMON subject. Please share with the people you feel need to see this!

This could be torture or this could be FUN, the choice is mine!
 
GOOD LUCK!

Love, Phoebe Dyk$tra

Another side of where I am at.

MISSING: My Mythical Man

A mythic poem by me.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

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​How to live a mythic life?
TRUTH is what serves my happiness.

We could debate truths until the cows come home.
But who would be right, who decides?

Truths are arbitrary.
Truths serve a purpose.

But truths change. What I believe now, in many cases, isn’t what I believed in the past and may not be what I believe in the future.

So, how do I know what is truth?

Truth is what serves my happiness!

This new belief gives me confidence!
This new belief helps me to be brave.
It helps me to avoid and get myself out of mind f*cks, to quickly return to happiness state.

Who needs to hear this message today? Please share.

Change the way you view the world, change the way you feel.

TRUTH!

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

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Besides returning to my Omnivorous state.

You can read an interview I did with The Perspectives here: http://www.mymythiclife.com/home/former-vegan-finds-happiness-happiness-eating-meat

There are 3 more dietary regimes I brought home from the jungle with me.

Any guesses what they could be?

I DRINK BLACK COFFEE

I left my daily Soy Vanilla Misto / Maple Syrup, Soy Latté / Almond Milk Mocha drinking habit in Peru.

Coffee is mind medicine.
Fancy coffees are treats!

If we (and I could, working as a barista!) drink these creamy, sugary treats, throughout the day, everyday, what would going out for a sundae with your bestie even mean anymore?

Would having dessert with your dinner give you the same, sink into your chair *mmmmmm*?

Would drinking hot chocolate after coming in from a snowball fight, even be a thing?

Since choosing to switch from daily dessert drinks to straight black coffee (or Americanos at work) I drink WAY less coffee! I didn’t “need” a coffee by 2pm, I was CRAVING SUGAR.

This switch seemed impossible but when I make a choice and I stick to it.

How much MORE am I going to enjoy my next 1/2 sweet soy chai latté that I have on a special occasion? I’m going to savour it like it’s my damn birthday!

I QUIT SNACKING

I’ve always loved snacking. It’s of those guilty, fun seeming, mindless things. SUGAR! SALT! CRUNCH!

At one of my lowest points, 2 years ago, I was vegan and “living” off snacks. Handfuls of granola, crackers with hummus, nuts, apples, chips. I thought I was a grazer but I know now I was starving and I was lonely.

What has been the energy behind my snacking? Why was I doing it? What was I trying to feed? Loneliness? Anxiety? Depression? Sadness? Boredom maybe?

I have made the choice to quit snacking between meals. I have made the choice to give myself my power back.

I give my energy to productivity and creativity and I am more focused than ever!

In special situations or if I am truly hungry, of course will eat between meals.

But, if I find myself wanting to stop at the convenience store for a bag of chips for my drive home, I stop and ask myself, what is really going on?

I DRINK JUICE AT LUNCH

I have a big breakfast
I have a juice or smoothie at lunch
I have a big health dinner

I have no more after lunch crash, I have no more stress about packing a lunch and I have tons of energy!

If I am finding myself needing more energy after work, before the gym, I will have a piece of fish or a pickled egg.

I feel powerful.

I feel motivated.
I feel in control of myself and my choices.
I feel clear like a channel.
I feel strong.

I’ve gained self control and without consciously trying, I’ve lost weight.

What has come up for you through reading this blog? What changes are you inspired to make? Yes, we are stronger than our urges, desires, habits and addictions.

Please share this message with the people that need to hear it today.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

How to live a mythic life?
Deep breath... TRUST.

Trust is peace.

No anxiety, no worries, no mind f*ck, no suffering.

Trust is peace.

Trust is a choice, I choose trust.

Trust is being in the zone!

Trust is a muscle. The more it’s exercised, the more trust grows and the easier it becomes to trust.

I do my due diligence of course.

Then I choose to practice trust.

For myself, my happiness, for love and connection to others.

Trust is peace.

Please share with the people who need to hear this message today.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

The background music, is me playing on my custom, purple steel tongue drum! 💜

*BONUS*

HOW TO LIVE A MYTHIC LIFE - Who do I trust?

I’m pretty hardcore right now. 🥾

It’s. Go. Time. ⏱

I have put myself on a very strict schedule, with strict rules. ☕️

In my masculine, on my mission. 💪🏼

If it doesn’t serve a purpose, if it doesn’t play it’s part in where I am going, I cannot make time for it right now. 🧗🏽‍♀️

I know I can achieve whatever I put myself into. 🌟

I believe in myself. 👑

I have proper places to put all the energy I have. 😄

A friend asked “why so rigid?” Because I’ve floof, fluff and floated for years! 🙄

It’s. Go. Time. 🎉

“Beast Mode” playlist on Spotify while I work out at the gym. 🏃🏽‍♀️

The only thing that could squeeze into my world, to soften and calmly slow me (beyond my white fluffy bed with fuzzy baby purple V shaped pillow and sheepy) right now would be, love. 💜

Love with big enough wings to hold me while I fly high, keeping his rock solid roots in the ground. 🦅

Love that helps me drop deeper into feeling my work that I am creating. 🎭

Love that becomes part of my mythic story, becomes my MYTHIC LOVE STORY. 💑

Love that helps bring the songs out of me. 🗣

Love. 💕

I’m pretty soft right now. 🌷

I love how my home is transforming!

When I first arrived home from Peru, I month ago, I made a MTV CRIBS-esque video to show you my house.
See video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ou3Ae-DHsjw&t=12s

In my video you see that where I slept, looked like this.

What symbolism does this show?
A temporary space to rest my head?

Plywood walls and a top bunk.
I would sleep tucked far into the wall, hiding away in my cave.

I am ready to BURST from my cave.
I am feeling OPEN OPEN OPEN.
I need room for my mythic man.
I want colour.
I’ve made the choice to call this HOME.

Ready to see the transformation that took place in just 1 inspired day?

*BOOM!*

What symbolism does this show?
A Queen’s cozy space, with room for love, YES!

My dad and I ripped the top bunk out, but left a piece on the wall for a shelf! Not planned, deffs MYTHIC!
I used blue paint I already had.
I felt it would go with the green wall already painted. Acacia is the colour.
I hung a painting of a Maestra, using magic to bring together two jaguars.

I love my BEDROOM so much now. It feels like PHOEBE, it feels like HAPPINESS!

Next house update will be my closet... because right now, I’ve got a make-shift closet in my soon to be shower.

I love my home so much!

Does your home and life, symbolically reflect where it is you are headed?

Please share with the people you feel could use this message.

I have a new blog and How To Live A Mythic Life video coming out on Saturday, so catch up on the first videos and subscribe to my channel to show me you are interested in my content and want me to keep it up!

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Love, Phoebe Dykstra

It's time to dust away my demons that have stopped me from believing in and sharing my creativity.
It's time to blossom into the artist I know I am.

This is #MythicMusicMondays

Please share with people who are being held back by their own fears.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

How to live a mythic life?
CHOOSE HAPPINESS!

Choosing happiness means, choosing to trust that everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, is exactly, deliciously as it should be.

If I feel bad, I choose to check in with myself to find out, what do I feel is not as it should be?

Once I know, I can then DO something about it.

If I CANNOT do anything about it, for my own inner peace, I choose to take the perception that what is happening is THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVERY HAPPENED TO ME.

This catches me from falling into victimhood, and helps pull myself into gratitude state.

Peace. 
Happiness.

Please share this with at least 3 people who need to hear this today.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

SONG CREDIT: Who Do I Want To Be? by... PHOEBE DYKSTRA!! ME!! #BUMBUMBUMMM

You can support my creativity!!!
https://itunes.apple.com/ca/album/who-do-i-want-to-be-single/1455768546?fbclid=IwAR13bvy23DgiVViw-S8POkLY5ZRX1-R7NqHjyYS5VakWMebwLa8QIU1M_-M

*BONUS* 
The many faces of happiness!

I have been experiencing a lot of mind fuck over releasing a song that I have written.
The temptation to fully back out, self sabotage.

I WILL NOT LISTEN TO VOICES INSIDE OR OUTSIDE OF ME THAT TELL ME WHO I CANNOT BE OR WHAT I CANNOT DO.

I wrote "Who Do I Want To Be?" 1 year ago, in the thick of a life transformational workshop in Peru.
I was lost in every way.
I had ZERO direction, I didn't know where I wanted to go.
I was fucked, nothing could make me happy.
Who did I want to be?

In life I had tried on every mask.

As most of you know, I wore the MTV host, wannabe celebrity mask, completely  buried by materialism.

I left that life to find myself, but found myself completely buried in the spirituality, New Age trend.

I didn't know yet who I wanted to be, but I was getting somewhere, I now knew what I DIDN'T want to be, a start, and that, was FAKE.

AND, I knew I want to use my voice!

Fast forward 1 year, I return to Peru for an advanced workshop, to work with my teacher to help me with my confidence, to make a CHOICE of where it is I want to go.

After 15 days of digging inside myself, writing, I CHOSE MY LIGHTHOUSE, my direction, my path!

To my surprise, my song I had written, "Who Do I Want To Be?" came back to me and now made perfect sense!

"Who Do I Want To Be?" is the theme song for MY MYTHIC LIFE!

BING BANG BOOM! We must record this here!

We recorded in the jungle studio, before I ran off to catch my plane home to Haida Gwaii.

I fully TRUST Leanne of Wet Pussy Productions, so off I went, my 1st song, in her hands!

After listening to this song, I know you are going to have a zillion questions, they are flooding in my Instagram inbox already.

I will get to all your questions, but for now I need to say that, the answer, to "Who Do I Want To Be?" is... THE REAL PHOEBE DYKSTRA! Not the person who has been a slave to her subconscious beliefs about needing to be "cool". Phoebe Dykstra with 100% conscious CHOICE of who she wants to be! I want to be HAPPY! I want to live the most mythical life that some would think only exists in the books. I want to go down in history for being Phoebe Dykstra The Great, who has shaken the world, inspired the people by being open and true to myself. Always transforming, BOLD, BRAVE!

I fully believe, *pushes aside the old beliefs, trying to tell me I can't do it* I can achieve whatever I dream!

Inch by inch, I am moving in the direction of where it is I want to be.

Like the hummingbird, I will enjoy the ride!

THIS IS A SONG OF TRANSFORMATION.
HAVE FUN WITH IT!

Who Do I Want to Be? - Single by Phoebe Dykstra
https://itunes.apple.com/ca/album/who-do-i-want-to-be-single/1455768546

#BUMBUMBUMMM
#BUMBUMBUMMM
#BUMBUMBUMMM

You'll notice that this song is only 2:10... I wonder... is there more to unfold?

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

​P.S. Who do YOU want to be?

I'm taking a #TattooTimeout for 2019.

I have decided to take a break from feeding the belief that more tattoos will enhance my coolness.
I am a human, I already AM cool!

I do not need to do things to make me stand out, be unique.
The greatest feeling is that of belonging, being one with others. 

I will not plaster my body up with more positive messages.
I will live by them.

I will not encourage the "never enough" mentality, by always wanting more.
I am satisfied and love what is already here.

I do not need more tattoos.
I finally have something real to say.

Who else feels it's time for a #TattooTimeout ?

Share this with someone who needs to hear it today.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

I have Who Do I Want To Be? on BLAST.
I am doing body slam dives into my white fluffy bed.
Leaping up and on to the floor to dance.
I am singing into my hand, turned into a fist microphone.
I am in pure happiness state.

My 1st ever song is coming out THIS Thursday, March. 14, at 6am.
On Itunes, Spotify and Amazon.com!

Are you ready to see the album artwork, designed by ME!!!!

*inserts insanely catchy tune into your subconscious forever*
BUM BUM BUMMMMMMM.
BUM BUM BUMMMMMMM.
BUM BUM BUM BA BUM BA BUMMMMMMMMM.

Weaving my dreams with reality!

Yes, I'm buying my own single on Itunes, Thursday morning at 6am!

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

#bumbumbummm

How to live a mythic life?
KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

​I've ended up in some pretty far out lands, while journeying with the question, "Who am I?"

I've searched high and low.
Literally.

"I'm this type of energy, from this planet, come here with this mission."
*Comes back down to Earth*
"Wait, what is my mission?"
"Okay, I am just here to LOVE and BE love, THAT is who I am!"
"But I had this past life regression and this doesn't add up."
"I know who I am! I'm everyone, I'm you, you are me, we are ONE! That's who I am!"
"I'm an alien, bye."

Like the answer to "how do I love myself?" this too isn't distant fluff, it's EASY!
Ready?

I KNOW WHO I AM BECAUSE I CHOOSE WHO I AM!

Dream! Who do you choose to be?

Please share with people who need to hear this today.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

*BONUS*
How To Live A Mythic Life - Who am I? OUTAKES!

Phoebe, Barista swag. ️⁣⁣⁣
(scroll down to gallery.)

⁣⁣Haida Gwaii wool turtle neck and Blundstones, meets Peruvian butt lift shorts. ⁣⁣⁣
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⁣⁣⁣I’ve been back at the coffee shop on Haida Gwaii for 5 days now, tomorrow will be my 6th in a row. ⁣⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣⁣⁣I am inspired and motivated to move forward with my personal projects.
Putting energy into my blog, building my social media platforms, writing and studying for the bigger vision I haven’t revealed yet and some music.

So I have made the decision to give myself 3 days a week, to focus on My Mythic Life.
4 days a week at the coffee shop.
I will be stepping up into the weekend manager position!

This will keep me structured, working around people and I will make income to put against my debt. ⁣⁣

It was so cool today when my boss offered to take my daily outfit photo!⁣⁣ She’s teaching me how to rock the coffee shop, and I’m teaching her social media! ⁣⁣

Worlds emerging!⁣⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣⁣⁣It’s too cold here for shorts but working behind the hot espresso machine all day, it works! ⁣⁣⁣⁣
⁣⁣⁣⁣Many people commented on the shorts and the fact that it isn’t summer but I think it’s the push up butt effect that was actually the attention grabber. 🤣 ⁣⁣⁣⁣

Happy weekend my friends!

*NEW* "How To Live A Mythic Life" video coming tomorrow!

​Love, Phoebe Dykstra

I've been sharing my journey openly with social media again.
I have to check myself though.
Check that who I am sharing myself as, doesn't become a positivity persona.
I must stay real, and be truthful in where I really am at.
This can be a bit awkward, having a blog, while being the barista in a small town.
BUT it's not much different than being open to all of Canada on live TV.

The truth is, I have been mind fucking like crazy.
Over men.

My confidence in real life, with the ones I have interest in, is super low.
This has been my reality since my first crush rejection in grade 7.
I have formed a belief that the ones that spark something in me, think I'm crazy and don't like me.
I become obsessed and the force, keeps them at a distance.
This causes me to then FEEL crazy and the confidence stays low. 

Loop.

I also have beliefs that I am different, not relatable.
A belief that it will take a very strong man to be able to keep up with me.
These beliefs are keeping me in fear and obsessive in my mind.
The idea of someone, the fantasy that plays out in my mind, keeps me company.
I stay in my movie.
I stay alone.

I am looking for a man who will be fascinated with my mind.
Feel my heart, deeply, beneath my big energy.
Will use the strength and size of his giant wings to hold me on Earth, while I shoot for my dreams.
Seeing that I am the most mythical and magical woman, he will be my rock.
Fully in, for this journey.

I took a drive to the beach.
While walking along the ocean's edge, the salt and the breeze washed over me.
My beliefs became old.
This verse, new.

Time to write myself a new story.

​Love, Phoebe Dykstra

At this New Moon, I've made the choice to ban myself from astrology.

I find that when I am following astrology too closely, I give my personal power away to it.
I use what is happening in the stars as an excuse to be in a negative or dramatic or lazy place.
When following astrology, I flow and flow and wait for a moment to arrive, instead of taking action, and creating a beautiful life for myself. 
I have found myself addicted to astrology, a drug that has been useful but right now, isn't helpful.
​
I need to take a step back, for my happiness.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

On the last day of each month, I will be diving into my numbers with my #BYEDEBT blog:
http://www.mymythiclife.com/home/project-bye-debt-begins-now-throwbackthursday

Another way I will be freshening up on my math skills will be with my new blog, that will be posted on the 1st Monday of every month, called #INSIGHTS.

Here I will be looking at my social media numbers.

Over the past 30 days, have I lost Instagram followers? Gained? How many unfollows? NEW people?
Have I lost or gained followers on Twitter?
Yes, X many people see my photo on FB but how many are engaging? Overall engagement average?
I HAVE HOW MANY NEW SUBSCRIBERS ON YOUTUBE?! 100% are female?
How many unique visits did mymythiclife.com get? How many people viewed my pages?

What can I learn about the content I am creating?
What can I learn about my loyal followers?

INSIGHTS can go VERY deep, mind bogglingly deep.
For now, I will start here.

It's not about POSITION, it's about DIRECTION.

TWITTER: @phoebedykstra
VERIFIED *
Followers last month: 101, 890
Followers this month: 101,767
(Bye 330 people!)

INSTAGRAM: @phoebedykstra
NOT VERIFIED
Followers last month: 76,890
Followers this month: 75,767
(Bye 1,457 people! HELLO 321 new people!)
Overall engagement average this week: 25%
Top Country this month: Canada
Top City this month: Toronto
Women fans this month: 73%
Men fans this month: 27%
Age range this month: 18-34

FACEBOOK: www.facebook.com/itsphoebedykstra
Likes last month: 53,026
Likes this month: 53, 851
(Hello 825 new people!)
Overall engagement average this month: 14%
Top Country this month: Canada
Top City this month: Ciudad de Buenos Aires, Argentina!
Top language this month: English (US)
Women fans this month: 72%
Men fans this month: 27%
Fan age range this month: 18-34

YOUTUBE: www.youtube.com/itsphoebedykstra
Subscribers last month: 192
Subscribers this month: 236
(Hello 44 new people!)
Top Country this month: Canada
Fan age this month: 18-24
Top Video this month: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lNlJZYGT448&t=2s
Views this month: 12,334

THIS BLOG: www.mymythiclife.com
Weekly Unique visits last month: 1,784
Weekly Unique visits this month: 4,112
(Hello 2,328 new people!)
Weekly Page views last month: 3,383
Weekly Page views this month: 7,081
(I need to learn how to calculate what percentage increase this is but I know that, BOOM! It's more than double the views!)

Everything looking awesome!
My peak Instagram following was over 140,000 when I quit as a TV host on MuchMusic / MTV.
I am now at 75, 767, which is near half of the followers but I'm discovering what LOYALTY the people who have stuck around have.
Everyday I receive more and more messages from people who have been with me for the full 7 years I've had Instagram, following my mythical life!
So, THANK YOU!

I hope to deliver real and true content, to inspire you through YOUR mythical lives!

Checking in on the first Monday of April, April.1!

Do you have friends who would be inspired by my content, please share and I love to know something I shared was dinner table talk.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

ALSO!
My Twitter account is verified, how can I get my Instagram account verified?
I have submitted my username, full name and have attached my photo id.
I have selected "Blogger / Influencer" as my category.
I've put that I'm "Known As" former MuchMusic VJ / MTV Canada host - current Blogger.

I've been rejected, but plan to try again at the end of the month, anyone have tips to help me align?
​THANKS!

​Love love, Phoebe Dykstra

How to live a mythic life?
LOVE myself!

I know that any light shines brighter in it's core, and that my love should be strongest for myself, then for my loved ones, then for the rest of the world, because if I do not love MYSELF, my love for others is fake and hollow.

Loving myself seems like this idea that lives in the ethereal, will I ever be able to get there? 

I've read every self-help book in the library's growing section, I've done the seminars, I've Post It noted my house in affirmations, I've even journeyed to Peru to do ceremonies, to get to the root, I know I am awesome but WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME, WHY CAN'T I LOVE MYSELF?

I've found the key.

It's SO easy!
SELF LOVE = PRIDE.

Discovering this is one of the biggest gifts I've received in my life. Self love exists NOW as I feel PRIDE that I have made this video!

Please share with people who need to hear this today, aka every single person on planet Earth.

HUGS to my teacher, Mikis Hasson.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra 

Find out more about my MYTHIC AF teacher, Mikis here:

Here's a *BEHIND THE SCENES* look at what I am willing to do to make myself PROUD aka SELF LOVE!
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