How to live a MYTHIC life?
Give a fuck about what is IMPORTANT!

“Any light shines brightest at it’s core.
So my love for myself must be strongest. Then for my loved ones.
Then for the rest of the world.

If I do not love myself first, my love for others is fake and hollow.” - Mikis Hasson

I have had a rough couple weeks. I was sick, I quit my job, I’ve been fixating my mind on a handsome illusion and I haven’t been putting energy into My Mythic Life.

I’ve been in a foggy funk.

So when it came time to work through pillar #9 and prepare to film this week’s How To Live A Mythic Life video, I was hit with a wall of resistance. It didn’t help that the concept of this week’s teaching has many layers and is the most controversial!

“If it doesn’t serve my happiness, I don’t give a fuck!”

I spent two days listening to The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A Fuck to try to understand more.

I discovered that I have been giving so many fucks to so many things that are NOT important, that do not make me happy! Worrying about what others think, ect.

I’ve now officially taken back all the fucks I had been throwing around and into places that didn’t serve my happiness and will now use them for what is important and makes me happy!

If it doesn’t serve my happiness, I don’t give a flying fuck!!!

No resistance wall can stop me from keeping my commitments, damnit! Here is this week’s How To Live A Mythic Life video, RIGHT ON TIME!

How to live a mythic life?
​My DIRECTION!

Right now my POSITION is:
*Feeling under the weather, not 100%.
*Living at my parent's house.
*I am in debt.
*I have no job.
*I am single.
*I don't have a pet.

Worrying about and over analyzing my POSITION is meaningless. It takes me into a negative downward spiral, where I feel f*cked. It is an excuse to do nothing.

No matter what my POSITION is, I can always choose to focus my intentions and resources on where I want to go, my DIRECTION.

DIRECTION:
*FEELING HEALTHY, 100%!
*LIVING RESPONSIBLY IN MY OWN HOUSE!
*HAVING MY OWN MONEY!
*HOSTING AND PRODUCING MY OWN TV SHOW!
*LIVING MY MYTHIC LOVE STORY WITH MY ROCK SOLID MAN.
*HAVING THE BEST DARN PET AROUND!

Focusing on my DIRECTION gives me confidence. It gets me excited for where I am going. It motivates me.

My mantra right now is:

IT'S NOT ABOUT MY POSITION, IT'S ABOUT MY DIRECTION!
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(And of course having GRATITUDE for what is here now.)

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For my whole life, I thought I wasn’t good at anything!

A disempowering belief, I wasn’t able to overcome.

This belief made me feel worthless.

This belief held me back.

Until now!


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For your reading pleasure or... Grab your grab your headphones and lay your sweet self back. Prepare to be set FREE as we take this journey together to discover, “What Am I Most Good At, Grandmother?”

This is my personal journey into myself, with guidance from my teacher, Mikis Hasson.
With assistance from master plant teacher, Grandmother Ayahuasca.

What Am I Most Good At, Grandmother?
By: Phoebe Dykstra

Listen to / Read “What If Nobody Likes Me, Grandmother?” Here:
http://www.mymythiclife.com/home/what-if-nobody-likes-me-grandmother-audio

Are you feeling BOLD, BRAVE and ready for real transformation, to help you move forward towards living your most mythic life? You can gather more information on being a part of a workshop with my teacher, here:

http://www.mymythiclife.com/ready-to-live-your-mythic-life.html

These people are my family, so let them know PHOEBE DYKSTRA sent you! You will also receive a FREE night stay (value of $50 USD) when you tell them you know me.

Please note: The workshops are now run with tools given to Mikis from the Ayahuasca. To help more people, they are run without the use of psychoactive plants. Thank you.

The main bulk of these workshops are held just outside of Tarapoto, Peru, but the team will be heading to Lesbos, Greece in June and Joshua Tree, California in October, which I would love to be at!

If my story makes you FEEL, please share.
Thank you.
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Love, Phoebe Dykstra
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How to live a mythic life?
Stick to it!

I have been f*cked the last few days and unable to post these videos as I felt like a huge HYPROCRITE!

I bailed on a big intention of my own.
I quit instead of STICKING TO IT.
I didn’t preserver.
This took me into a place of mistrust with myself.
I started to spiral.
I started to give up on myself and my dreams.

As I watched these videos I felt pathetic.
How could I have become a preacher that is not practicing!

Well, as I watched myself release my old intention, I got an idea!

I leaped off my bed, put my magic jeans on, bright happy pink top, reminded myself I’m a mythic queen and drove to town to ask the sushi restaurant for a job, as I had just quit mine at the coffee shop.

Feeling my trust for myself return as I AM keeping my intention to work in the service industry, for this next year to pay my debt off.

It’s just going to look a bit different!

*BOOM*

May I proudly present, this week’s HOW TO LIVE A MYTHIC LIFE VIDEOS!

STICK TO IT!

CHOOSE YOUR INTENTIONS!

I am still under the weather, throat cold has moved into brain pain.

But even with the fog, I feel clear.

It’s time to fly.

I feel like the morning after ceremony.

I feel the pressured cage around my heart has been lifted.

It’s time to fly.

I feel beautiful.

I feel soft.

I feel me.

It’s time to fly.

I feel love and I want to slow down and connect with people.

I feel life again.

It’s time to fly.

I made a courageous choice for myself two days ago.

I pulled The Ground out from under my feet.

I am now in full TRUST with my dreams.

It’s time to fly.

It feels like floating in white fluffy clouds.
(That might be the cold medicine...)

My heart is open.

It’s time to fly.

I know I need structure and routine.

It’s time for me to make my own.

It’s time to fly.

I will be working with “make a choice and STICK WITH IT” so the Universe can work WITH me.

I am on track.

I am excited for the unfolding as I work towards my goals.

I love that you are with me, as I create My Mythic Life.

It’s time to fly.

Hugs!
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Love, Phoebe Dykstra

I’ve made it possible for you to register right here, through my blog. These people are my family, so be sure to let them know you a friend of mine.They are also offering 1 FREE night stay ($50 USD value) if you do say PHOEBE DYKSTRA sent you!

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I’m so super fired up right now, working with this belief that I CAN!

I’ve been almost busting the local gym’s elliptical machine after work, everyday.

I’m so full up to the brim with energy, KNOWING that I CAN get to where I want to be!!!!

There will be ZERO voices inside of me or outside of me that will be able to stop me from getting to my lighthouse!!!!

I know you have friends and followers that need to hear this! Please share!

I THINK I CAN! I THINK I CAN! I THINK I CAN!

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

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#THROWBACK

This was the final lead up, to the point when the PARADOX became too much!

I was fanatic about celebrity.
I had dreamed of being a part of it since I was a little girl.
I was living my dream.

At the same time...

I was entranced by New Age spirituality.
I had crystals, oracle decks, went to reiki and saw psychics from an early age.
Spirit was my drug, my study, my friend.

But I wasn’t able to find BALANCE.

I was in 2 contradicting worlds, had 2 contradicting sets of BELIEFS.

I needed to make a CHOICE!

I quit my dream job at MTV and have been on a journey to merge my worlds, ever since.

I am now consciously choosing BELIEFS that serve my HAPPINESS. I sit at my altar, in TRUST, planning my way back into the spotlight.

Knowing that it’s not about my POSITION, it’s about my DIRECTION.

I am closer today than ever before.

Where do you feel you are in PARADOX in your life? Can you find BALANCE or do you need to make a CHOICE?

If you FEEL this, please share.

Love, Phoebe Dykstra

If you need professional help getting out of the paradox, consider signing yourself up for the workshop that helped me transform myself from the inside out.

“The Choice OS Mythic Voyage empowers us by gifting us the full spectrum of choice and control on who we are and who we want to be, it is a revolutionary way to transcend trauma, lack of self worth, unsatifactoriness and depression, offering flight rather than healing.”

https://www.tierramitica.com/choice-os-workshops/

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PART 1
After my first sit in the hot seat, it was evident that I was fucked.
I was asked by my teacher Mikis, in my consultation, in front of the group "Who are you Phoebe?" I froze.
I never knew how to answer that question, my self-confidence levels low.
"Well, who are you?"
"Uh... I'm 29"
"Okay."
"I'm funny, sometimes"
"You are funny sometimes?"
"I like animals. No, I love animals"
I went quiet and started to well up.
"I'm useless, I'm ugly..."
I could feel everyone in the room feeling me.
My body covered in goosebumps.
I shook.
Rain began to pour from the sky.
The jungle was crying with me.

Mikis asks "Are you fake?"
Soaked in tears but fully trusting this workshop was going to be my turning point, I pondered the question.
I remembered when I was a TV personality, people liked me because I was "authentic" maybe authentic in comparison to other talking heads... I responded "sometimes?"
"Are you fake, Phoebe?"
"Yes" I responded, sitting with the idea.

At the end of this consultation, Mikis said, if I'd like, the hosting team could give me a make-over.

I've always created my appearance. I started colouring my hair in grade 6 and getting funky haircuts shortly after. I went through every phase imaginable.

Avril Lavigne: Thick black make-up and Dickies pants.
Snowboarder chick: Only wore "Roxy" brand.
Olsen Twin: Hobo chic, chunky thrift store jewellery, which led me to form an eating disorder... control.
"Gangsta" girl: Wearing Baby Phat, doing hard drugs, coupled with a boyfriend who was an Eminem look-a-like.

Screamo-scene-chick: Black hair, gauged ears, piercings.
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Eventually I became a MuchMusic / MTV personality, having myself dressed up in all sorts of trendy looks. Fake hair, fake nails, fake smile. I never fully trusted the producers, make-up artists or hair and wardrobe stylists to make me look how I wanted. I was definitely a challenge to work with. I quit the TV industry and moved to be with a small hippie community, what mask to wear now... do I stop dying my hair? No make-up? Stop shaving my armpits? Who should I be?

Okay hosting team, I NEED REAL PERMANENT CHANGE. Help!

I cringed as Sara cut my hair short. She felt that the shaved sides and mullet was giving mixed messages. I agreed. She pulled out a box of BROWN hair dye. I began to shake. Boring, brown box dye. I felt they were trying to make me boring, a for sure fear. I bit my tongue to keep my mouth shut. My appearance has ALWAYS been my one control. I handed it over. Aura and Brielle gathered some dresses for me. They were not cool seeming, exactly the point.

I felt like a newborn baby but looked much closer to my actual age than ever before!
The crowd went wild!

Fast forward our first Ayahuasca ceremony and many looks from Mikis to stop putting the "silly show" on... it was time for our second night of Ayahuasca.

We had a very long day in the Airport (our classroom in the jungle). Everyone eager for their night's intentions. After working with many, Mikis takes the tobacco to his lips, looks at me and everyone goes quiet.

"Phoebe, I have your intention. It's a hard one, are you ready to work?"
"Yes!"

"What If Nobody Likes Me, Grandmother? Phoebe, to be clear, the question is LIKES not loves. I'm going to help you but you need to work hard."

Everyone was dismissed to change into their ceremony clothing, the jungle was dry so tonight, we drank under the stars.

I stayed behind the group, "Mikis?" "Yes?"
I got nervous and my eyes started to fill, shakey, I open my mouth, "I just want you to know that I've been living out of my car, I don't have a home or a job..." "Phoebe, I know." "Please help me." He looks at me like a father to a daughter "I'm going to help you, I promise you, but I need you to work." "Okay." We hug. "If I was your father, I'd be proud. I am proud."

I scurry to my room, relieved, thankful and motivated to work my ass off in ceremony tonight, no matter what I have to face!

TO BE CONTINUED...

PART 2
I strapped on the headlamp my dad gave me and slipped on my jaguar runners.

"What If Nobody Likes Me, Grandmother?"
I repeated my intention, engraving it into my being as we walked down the trail to Babushka, the outdoor ceremony floor.
I thought of my Gramma Rose.

She called her scarves "Babushkas", I haven't thought of this word in many years.

[Babushka: Russian word meaning grandmother, used to mean an old woman or a type of headscarf.]

I knew tonight was going to be potent.
I was going in fearless, determined.
I requested to sit close to the shamans.

The cup was big.
It took me two huge gulps to get it down. The smell of tobacco mixed with the taste of the Ayahuasca became overwhelming, I bit my lip to show my body who was in charge.

What If Nobody Likes Me, Grandmother?
What If Nobody Likes Me, Grandmother?
What If Nobody Likes Me, Grandmother?

The shamans began to sing.

I laid on my back, arms by my side, eyes closed and was tucked in with a big wool blanket. Straight to work.

What If Nobody Likes Me, Grandmother?

I immediately began to imagine the playground of the school I went to when I was young.

What if nobody at the school likes me, Grandmother?

I went over each one of my grade school crushes. I said their name in my mind, remembered an occasion when I was nervous around them and felt they didn't like me back.

One by one I went through every girl that bullied me. I said the name of the one that put me through the most hell. I got stumped on her last name. Why couldn't I remember her last name? I repeated my intention again, to keep it clear in my mind, in case the Ayahuasca was about to take me over. What was her last name? Never-mind her last name, "What if Sasha doesn't like me?" I remembered being at her house in grade 8. I remembered her basement having walls filled with movies, she had every "thing." I always felt her parents were too busy so they bought her stuff to make up for lost love and attention. I remembered her being at my house, telling my mother lies to her face at the kitchen table. I thought she was a liar. Wait, what if I didn't like HER?

I thought of being at another one of my bully's homes. This girl, a fake.

I thought about an ex co-worker. We never got along, I thought she was fake.

Wait, what if everyone that didn't like me, I actually didn't like either?

I could feel my friend and fellow workshop mate Markus, restless. He was laying on the mattress next to me. He began to mumble and call "Aura" for help. Another friend and workshop mate to my right began to talk to herself and call "Aura"'for help.

The medicine came on stronger.

What if nobody likes me, Grandmother?

Markus screams "HELP ME!"

What if nobody likes me, Grandmother?
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"HELP ME! HELP ME!"

One of our helpers rushes over to assist Mark.

I felt terror.
Focus Phoebe!

What if nobody at high-school liked me?
I get flashes of my high-school bullies.
What if nobody here in the workshop likes me?

Mark's speech goes back and fourth between English and German. He is moving around. I can feel his fear. He starts to flail his arms and legs everywhere, shouting. I could feel the presence of something that wasn't him.

Sara from our hosting team calmly comes up to my ear and whispers "stay focused on your intention Phoebe, your brother is fighting for his life."

My feeling of love for him override my feelings of fear.

Something black, the size of a bowling ball hits me in the chest. It feels demonic. I tighten up but refuse to open my eyes or move my limbs. *Thud*, what feels and looks like a black panther slams into the side of me.

I scream.
I can hear and feel black dogs sniffing around my head.
They are sniffing for fear to feed on.

I shift my energy.

What if nobody likes me?
What if I LIKE ME?

I started at my feet.
I like my feet!
I like my ankles!
I like my legs!
I like you legs!

The dogs leave but I am scared these parts of Mark are going to come back.

I like you belly!
I like you arms!
What if nobody likes me?
I LIKE ME! I LIKE ME! I LIKE ME!

Mikis is called to the ceremony floor, he creates distance between Mark and the rest of the group.

I call and ask for a worker to come sit by me. I told them I am scared something will jump on me. They re-assured me I am safe and encourage me to focus on my intention.

What if nobody on Instagram likes me?
What if nobody on twitter likes me?
"LIKES" me.
Oh.
I began to think about how much time was spent doing #phoebesdailyoutfit photos and how many likes I'd get.
How little likes I get now.

I can hear Mark going back and fourth between personalities, Mikis is working to set him free.
I am distracted but their process is pushing me to work harder in my own.

"Dear Argonauts, the second ceremony of your Mythic Voyage is now over..."

I am assisted to sit up, I reach for a bottle of water, hold it in my hands and slowly bring it to my mouth. I feel like a newborn holding a warm bottle of milk. The water tasted like sweet rose and honey. I chugged the whole bottle, got up and was assisted in finding my jaguar runners.

TO BE CONTINUED...

My brain is hurting this morning from getting my last minute #ByeDebt blog up, on a Sunday evening. Looking at more numbers this morning is not my highest excitement but it’s something I have committed to doing, okay SUPER BRAIN, let’s dive in.

If you aren’t familiar with #insights - it’s the place I come, on the 1st Monday of each month, to look at my social media numbers, to see my progress and hopefully learn how I can improve.

This is a Serpent practice, meaning it is for non emotional / practical purposes. 

 With that being said, here we go!

TWITTER: @phoebedykstra
VERIFIED *
Followers Feb. 1, 2019: 101, 890
Followers March 1, 2019: 101, 767

Followers April 1, 2019: 101,760
Last Month -> This Month: -7

INSTAGRAM: @phoebedykstra
SUBMITTED MY REQUEST FOR VERIFICATION FOR A 2ND TIME.
Followers Feb. 1, 2019: 76,890
Followers March 1, 2019: 75,767

Followers April 1, 2019: 73,751
(Bye 3656 people! HELLO 471 new people!)
Last Month -> This Month: -2016

In hopes to grow my audience, I signed up for a trial run, with a company that helps you get “likes” and new followers, by engaging for you. While doing my due diligence, I changed my mind and decided that there is nobody that can engage for me. I will get new eyes and new hearts and connect deeper with who’s been with me for years, genuinely. If that means, laying in bed, after a long day of, body falling sleep, I’ll do it!

Profile visits in past week: 3,518
Website “link” clicks in past week: 295

Top Country this month: Canada (Same as previous)
Top City this month: Toronto (Same)
Fans are women this month: 73% (Same)
Fans are men month: 27% (Same)
Age range this month: 18-34 (Same)

FACEBOOK: www.facebook.com/itsphoebedykstra
Likes Feb. 1, 2019: 53,026
Likes March 1, 2019: 53, 851

Likes April 1, 2019: 53, 534
Last Month -> This Month: -317
Post Reach: +21%
Post Engagements: +10%
Top Country this month: Canada (Same)
Top City this month: Ciudad de Buenos Aires, Argentina! (Same)
Top language this month: English (US) (Same)
Women fans this month: 72% (Same)
Men fans this month: 27% (Same)
Fan age range this month: 18-34 (Same)

YOUTUBE: www.youtube.com/itsphoebedykstra
SUBSCRIBE QUICK LINK: https://tinyurl.com/y5g3pq8e‬
Subscribers Feb. 1, 2019: 192
Subscribers March 1, 2019: 236

Subscribers April. 1, 2019: 349
(Hello 113 new people!)
Top Country this month: Canada (Same)
Fan age this month: 18-24 (Same)
Top Video on March 1, 2019: My Mythic Life - Returning To Tierra Mitica https://youtu.be/lNlJZYGT448Top Video on April. 1, 2019: #MYTHICMUSICMONDAYS - Live In My Life https://youtu.be/jgY2m6Lb8fs 
Views since I started my channel - March 1, 2019: 12,334

Views since I started my channel - April 1, 2019: 14,902
New Views - Last Month -> This Month: +2,568 

I did a call out on Social Media, to see if together we could get my YouTube channel up to 500 people by midnight. Thank you to the 113 people who checked out my channel and subscribed! We didn't make the 500, but that just means I need to stay focused on making real content that makes you feel.

THIS BLOG: www.mymythiclife.com
Weekly Unique visits Feb. 1, 2019: 1,784
Weekly Unique visits March 1, 2019: 4,112

Weekly Unique visits April 1, 2019: 1,070
Last Month -> This Month: -3,042

Weekly Page views Feb. 1, 2019: 3,383
Weekly Page views March 1, 2019: 7,081

Weekly Page views April 1, 2019: 1,932
Last Month -> This Month: -5,149

Last month was a great spike in viewers to MYMYTHICLIFE.COM, this month my numbers are down. Going to keep on, keeping on. I trust in my direction and know that I am making impact on the views that are happening!

So, THANK YOU FOR READING AND WATCHING AND FEELING!

I hope to deliver real and true content, to inspire you through YOUR mythical lives!

Checking in next on May. 1st.

Do you have friends who would be inspired by my content?
Please share and help me build my audience. 

Love, Phoebe Dykstra