If happiness is our default mode,
Why are we not happy?
* Striving to be PARADOX-FREE since December 2017*
The local parade is going down main street.
I am working in the coffee shop. I grab our shop sign and jump into the parade!! Had the idea but thought... “I couldn’t!! What would people think???!!!” DID IT ANYWAYS!!!!
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My partner Shaun casually mentioned it would be “the dream” to come in from work to a meal of deer, cooked by his hunny.
Today I’ve been slaying dragons left and right!!!! A piece of deer that Shaun had hunted (my sexy provider!!!!) earlier in the year, showed up in our kitchen sink today as we planned to have this for supper. I washed dishes and tidied up the kitchen, while watching my man mow the lawn outside. The piece of deer meat sat there screaming at me with opportunity to slay more, BIG dragons. I figured I’d make the salad... Maybe HE’D want to make the deer... There’s no way I can do it, I wouldn’t be able to focus long enough. I wouldn’t be able to sit and read how on google, there’s too many distractions. I don’t know how to cook! I get anxiety in the kitchen! I can’t do this! UGH! I’ll ask my mom. She explains simply how to do a roast. But.... but... My past eating disorder, restricting, control demons try to block me. 12 years of vegetarianism blow dark smog at my neck and scream, “Phoebe! It’s a dead animal!” The blood splatters on the wall as I remove it from the bag. I can see a big blue vein. “Man, what a dream it would be to come in after work to a cooked meal of deer, made by my hunny!” DAMNIT! I put it in the frying pan. I thank the deer for nourishing us. Thank you deer for this opportunity to face my fears. For this opportunity to feel proud! Thank you deer for the opportunity to show my love in this way! Filling Up.
Filling the Hummingbird feeder up with sweet Nectar. Filling the hole we dug in the yard for our Tree. Filling the drawers with clean Laundry. Filling my mug with Liquorice Tea. Filling our tub with bubbly Water. Filling our bellies with deluxe KD. Filling our Arms with each other. Filling the Space between You and Me. Feels like I was just offered a 🏆FREE SCHOLARSHIP🏆 to the UNIVERSITY OF MY DREAMS!!! 🤩🤩🤩
Going DEEP DIVING! 15 days of work at Tierra Mitica!!! ((( https://www.tierramitica.com/advanced-choice-workshop-2/ ))) Guess that hard self-work and proud dedication really does pay off!!! 🌟🌟🌟 THIS MYTHIC LIFE CONTINUES!!!! I say FUCK YES! SUBJECTS: 🎨 CREATIVITY, INSPIRATION, SCULPTING, PAINTING, SONG WRITING AND PERFORMING. 🎨 🕰 TIME-SPACE PROBABILITY MANIPULATION 🕰 👫 UNDERSTANDING THE MASCULINE AND THE FEMININE. 👫 💃🏼 SEDUCTION, SENSUALITY AND SEXUALITY, ENLIGHTENED SEXUALITY. 💃🏼 💑 THE ART OF ENLIGHTENED RELATIONSHIP 💑 ☮️ SYMBOLISM- READING THE SIGNS AND POWERFUL TRANSMISSIONS. ☮️ 😆 DREAMING A PROJECT INTO BEING 😆 👁 THE ENERGY WORLD, HOW TO UNDERSTAND IT, CONNECT TO IT AND USE IT TO YOUR BENEFIT. 👁 🐍🐆 AYAHUASCA, HOW TO LIVE AND EXPERIENCE HER VIBRATION WITHOUT THE BREW. 🐍🐆 💐 THE ART OF MAKING THINGS RIGHT. 💐 ❤️ DEALING WITH PARENTS ❤️ Write about the Birds
The Bees Hummingbird, the Trees Cedar sway Nettle sting Weeping Willow Tree sing Surprise Woodpecker Eagle soar Robin shows their worms galore! Agates in the garden Yellow Tulips bloom The comfiest chair, shaped like the Moon Sun is shining The Skies are SOOO blue Ha’waa for finally finding You!!! |
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