If happiness is our default mode,
Why are we not happy?
* Striving to be PARADOX-FREE since December 2017*
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“This Is Us” on Netflix is a great TV series that’s storylines goes into healing personal and family shit.
The big / important work. Enjoying watching it curled up on the couch with my mom. Always apologies, hugs & sometimes cries after the show. 💜 The tides are changing.
I’m not afraid of the unknown. I trust. I’m excited for what’s to come. I’m finding myself focused more on the future. The journey that’s coming closer into sight. I go to countdown the days then stop myself. I know there is magic in the now. There is magic, happiness, in what’s in front of me. ALOT can happen in 1 month. But I’m sad. I’m not happy, I’m sad. Happiness is a choice but I’m sad. Hell is being alone. And I feel alone. I think my biggest paradox within me is that I isolate myself when I deep down want to be with people. I want to comfortably hang out with friends. I want to be a little girl, I want to play! I get invited out but I hide. I had a man to hide with, but I had to let him go. I leave for Peru in 1 month. Everything will change, I hope. I wish I was leaving tomorrow. I wish someone was coming along with me. I trust. I’m ready. To have new perspective off this island. To fly! |
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