New hairdo to inspire little Phoebe out to play!

The tides are changing.
I’m not afraid of the unknown.
I trust.
I’m excited for what’s to come.
I’m finding myself focused more on the future.
The journey that’s coming closer into sight.
I go to countdown the days then stop myself.
I know there is magic in the now.
There is magic, happiness, in what’s in front of me.
ALOT can happen in 1 month.
But I’m sad.
I’m not happy, I’m sad.
Happiness is a choice but I’m sad.
Hell is being alone.
And I feel alone.
I think my biggest paradox within me is that I isolate myself when I deep down want to be with people.
I want to comfortably hang out with friends.
I want to be a little girl, I want to play!
I get invited out but I hide.
I had a man to hide with, but I had to let him go.
I leave for Peru in 1 month.
Everything will change, I hope.
I wish I was leaving tomorrow.
I wish someone was coming along with me.
I trust.
I’m ready.
To have new perspective off this island.
To fly!