End of an EARa! 👂

Today I had cosmetic surgery to have my guaged ears sewn up.

I'm at a place in my life where I am taking a deeper look at why I do the things I do, as well as what messages I am giving off symbolically.

I started stretching my ears when I was 19, for no cultural or spiritual reason. I did it because my friends were and I thought it was cool. I no longer need to give off the message that I am hardcore, different and against society / my human nature.

I am very much looking forward to the healing to adorn my ears with long, feminine earrings.

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And just like that, I have everything I've ever dreamed and more.

I am writing this update from the swanky hospital lounge, in Prince Rupert Regional Hospital. I am having a green smoothie as I wait for my husband to finish up his shift. I am happy, truly happy.

My whole life, I've wanted to be light. I thought to be as happy as I dreamed to be, I needed to be light for the whole world, so I strived to be a star.

Wanting to be a star has driven every choice I have made, since I was a young girl. Wanting to be famous is why I became a MuchMusic tv host.

Last month I was faced with a choice.

To continue to allow the celebrity on my shoulder to rule my life, or choose the man who was now kneeled in front of me.

Strive to be light for the world, however that may look... Or choose to give all of my light to this man.

I chose him.

And now, after years of struggles, fighting for my happiness, it all makes sense.

We got married right away, in Las Vegas and are making our way to Peru next month, for our shamanic wedding.

Once we celebrate in Peru and complete our advanced self development workshop with Happiness Research Centre, Tierra Mitica, we will make our way to South Africa to celebrate our love with my husband’s family!

My husband and I have been filming our mythic love story, and will be sharing it when the time is right!

We are up to some mythic shit, that we can't wait to share, but we are holding on to it, again, until the time is right!

With so much love,
Phoebe van der Wart

Riaan and I have completed the Enlightened Sex Manual and are now on to David D’s “The Way Of The Superior Man” and “Dear Lover”

Struggling a bit today, as we both are working against our previous programmings (me prominently in the masculine and him the feminine) but we know our true essence and are committed to this work, finding balance and are loving each other deeper, everyday.

💕🌷👑🌷💕

I still find it crazy, that 2 days after doing a hypnotherapy session around my Paradox of wanting to be alone vs. wanting to be 1 with...

I meet the first person who, I want to be with more than I want to be alone. My husband.

I will never underestimate the power of my beliefs, choosing them wisely.

#throwback

BEFORE

AFTER!!!

Reflecting on my past 2 years, as I prepare to head to California for My Mythic Voyage III

Reflect on the transformation, the life of this butterfly.
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I walked down my stairs
With intention to find something to clear out
To my surprise
There he was, in his full glory

Only his front two hands
Were grasped around my throat
His expression was calm
As he had been there
Me, his puppet
For 25 years

His back two arms attached
And ran deep into the walls of my subconscious
He was a giant black cape for my back
His back body floated up and attached to the ceiling above my head

He knew it was time.

Without a fight
He took his hands from my throat
I then began to pull his darkness from both sides
Pulling pulling pulling
I pulled it out of the ceiling
I gathered his darkness into a bundle

*Squeeze*

I hugged it
“Thank You”

Into the box and out the door.

I was exhausted

I rubbed rose oil on the wounds
And watched them begin to heal

When I reached the top of my stairs
I voice firmly says:


“I think what you need is to get back out in the world.”
“I think what you need is to get back out in the world.”
“I think what you need is to get back out in the world.”

Until I get to fly off the island of Haida Gwaii, and start making my way to CALIFORNIA for my 3rd 'Mythic Voyage' workshop!

THRILLED for the ch-ch-ch-ch-changes that will take place!!!

I'm thinking about maybe even FILMING my journey for IGTV, yah?