Crabby?

Growing up my family would take me to Red Lobster on my birthday every year.
It hurt me seeing the lobster alive in the tank but I loved to eat them when they arrived on my plate.

I became vegetarian / vegan for 12 years.

I’m working hard at changing my belief systems.

I now live on First Nation’s land.
The oceans have been providing nourishment to the local people on Haida Gwaii for thousands of years.

I understand and feel this.

I still get in paradox though and have inklings of my old beliefs about killing animals pop up.

I will eat this crab.
I will not watch it die.

There’s the paradox.

I will get to a place of being able to hold the crestation, thank him for his life and then place him in the boiling pot of water.

It will then transform.
From friend to food.

I will crack “it” open, dip it in hot butter and do a happy dance because YUM!