January 9, 2018

My Mythic Life
January 9, 2018

Today one of the customers coming through my til asked,
“So, what do you have in your head today?”
I replied,
“Mainly gratitude for having this job!”
“I meant, what song do you have stuck in your head today, you are always singing when I come bring my groceries through.”
“OH! Well actually, I discovered that the phone here has a speaker on it, so the radio is playing! I’ve got a new song to sing along with every 4 minutes!”

The radio cycles between Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran and Justin Bieber so, I’m stoked.
I request to the general manager of the Co-op that we have music playing throughout the whole store for the customers but something about the speakers being set up poorly and that the music would blast in one area and be silent in another… I let it go.
Customers can jam out with me at my til, til #3.
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So, I’m 3 weeks into my new life, on Haida Gwaii.

My teacher Mikis and I, when leaving Tierra Mitica (my workshop in Peru) created a year plan for me:

“Daily: Pillars (this is a Choice OS - https://choiceos.com/choice-os/ - thing)
Daily: Offering of gratitude to your altar.
Twice a week: Take Salsa lessons.
Once a day: Tell someone something personal.
Once a week: Connect with a person from your past.
Once a month: Truly from your heart apologize for something that you have wronged.
Once a week eat bacon, lots of it!
Move away from the “spiritiod’ community and move in with your mother. Get a steady job and start paying your debts. Take responsibility, and connect with family to create stability and have reference points.

While working a steady job start writing your blog. You have a message for all the girls out there facing the same things you faced; you can truly help them see things differently just by sharing your life. Write from your heart, about your life experiences, write about your relationship with your mother, write about your TV career and the choices you made, the reasons for those choices and what you learned.”

I’ve been back in Canada for 4 weeks exactly.

I think of my pillars daily, I’ve got the first 5 on the dash of my car as well as above my altar.

This of course wouldn't mean much to you if you haven’t completed a Mythic Voyage or a Choice OS workshop. For me, going over these is very helpful when in a situation where I feel stuck or unsure.

I sit and work with my altar every single morning, no matter what. I find it to be grounding, it only makes sense to start my day off with magic.
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Today I felt inspired to create the shape of a heart.

Here’s how to create yourself your altar:

Take a stone or an object, feel, and blow yourself into the object. Place it in the center of the altar. Do the same for other people or subjects which have importance in your life at the time (such as work, projects, events). The altar represents a picture of your life at the moment. When you set-up the altar you do it in a way that feels beautiful and harmonious to you. Every day when you visit the altar you want to achieve this feeling of beauty and harmony. Give an offering of gratitude such as a flower and give it to the altar saying thanks,​ “I am giving this flower in gratitude for….”

I moved to a remote island where there are NO dance classes, let alone Salsa!
We just got wifi at our place (we live right on the ocean, my mom has been on a waiting list to get wifi!) so, I ought to check into online salsa lessons?
I think the idea is to attend something of a social gathering as well … hmm.
Leaving this one out for now.

This next one is easy for me, “tell someone something personal, everyday.”
I’m an open-book.
The customers of the grocery store love to ask me questions to so, check!

I’ve made a memo to myself in my phone, every week I am to reach out to someone from my past.
Yesterday I looked up my first best friend and neighbor, sent her a message!

My calendar also shows that one day a month I am to reach out and apologize to someone I have done wrong.
Tomorrow is the day.
Who have I wronged?
I’ll need to think on this one.

When at Tierra Mitica, you are encouraged to go towards what you are resistant to.
If you avoid something, it is pointed out.
We then work through why there is resistance in this area and what belief system you have in your programming.
The belief system is then to be challenged.
This was me with meat, bacon.
I avoided it and even said “can you guys make me a sandwich with just vegetables?”
Busted.
I am now to eat bacon once a week, for me, it’s to show that I am stronger than any belief system.
Vegetarians, Vegans, put a piece of bacon (if you can even say this word without throwing up or crying) in your mouth… it’s literally the hardest thing, right?
Now, do it, and try to manipulate your mind into enjoying it?
Welcome to my life.

I have moved away from my communities who have very specific belief systems that aren’t serving my growth right now.
I have moments of missing them.
Dancing with them every week, all organic food and elixars, the spirit central conversation, our like-minds, the physical closeness we all have with each other, * sigh * all the snuggles.

I have moved myself onto my parent’s land.
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Stepping out my door we’ve got the ocean to my left (literally, I can hear the sound of the ocean’s crashing waves over the Icaros being sung through my speaker!)

Eagles and ravens overhead, rainforest to my right.

My space has a bed (which I have not had in 3 years!), a table where I make coffee and tea, the desk I am sitting at now, a wardrobe for the very little clothing I have in my life and my yoga swing my dad helped me hang up!
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​The space is small but it’s sure bigger than my Honda Civic (which I have on island with me!), by far. ​

I have my own cedar outhouse that my dad built but usually use the bathroom in my mom’s house (it’s a hop, skip and jump away).
She’s got a bathtub too!
I also use her kitchen, enjoy her cooking, watch movies with my parents and hang out with our cat Rei.
It’s a lot for a mother and daughter to live together, but we are doing really well.
She’s really the best mom, like, THE BEST.
I’m so grateful she has invited me to come here at this time.
​I’m grateful to have my own space, I’m sure she is too.

I’ve been instructed by my teacher to get a steady job in the service industry, work in a coffee shop.
Well, the only coffee shop on this end of the island is closing for a month, the vegetarian restaurant and the fancy tourist restaurant are also closing for a month!
So, there’s the bar.
Now, I know I need to face my 9-5 job resistance, as well as re-familiarize myself with basic human interaction but, no to serving alcohol right now.
So, the local co-op grocery store it is!
Working as a cashier at a small town grocery store was the first experience I had when entering the working world.
This would be very strange to start my new life off in this same role… or maybe this is exactly, deliciously as it should be?
I call the Co-op.
I go in for an interview the next day.
I am hired!
I ask to be trained the following day.

Well, moving beyond the couple of days of resistance… turns out it’s actually fun!
I’m making it fun!
It feels so good to have routine!
Structure!
Responsibility!
Getting back to the basics.
Meeting everyone on the island.
Hearing bits and pieces of Haida culture as the locals come through.

"You are new!"
"Welcome to Masset!"
"Where did you move from?"
"How long are you staying?"
"Did your neck tattoo hurt?”

It feels so good to know I have a pay-cheque coming in 2 weeks!
I’m more productive when I’m off work because it’s my time.
For years I’ve had too much free time.
I am BEYOND GRATEFUL for my 9-5!
Wow, who would have thought I’d say this one day!

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​I’m going to apply to be an Educational Assistant at the elementary school as well.
I want to learn the Haida culture and assist young kids.
I’m going to be putting part of my hard earned money towards paying my credit card off.
I am taking responsibility.
I am connecting with my parents.
I am healthy.
I feel stability and have reference points!

As for starting a blog to share my mythic life, here we are!

I have moments of wanting more, but I don’t have the gut reaction to pack up and run like I’m used to.
This is a time of being settled, creating firm foundation.
I’ve made these choices and I TRUST, I TRUST, I TRUST!