October. 31, 2018

I’m sitting in the Aleeda Motel in Prince Rupert, BC.
I just went for a jog.
Had a hot shower.
I’m drinking my morning coffee.

I love the way the coffee drops stick to the outside of my new mug.
It reminds me of the mugs my dad would leave in the milk-house in the barn.
Once a collection was made, my mom would hook them on her fingers, fill her arms and haul them back in the kitchen to be washed.

My boyfriend is going to school for resource management.
I hopped on the ferry to come spend some time with him, somewhere other than in our home on the island.
New energy, new scenery.
What could pavement do for us?
I’m glad I did.
Our love grows deeper, stronger, with every hurdle we are able to leap.
He’s used to women running.
I’m a woman who’s used to running.
Everytime I stay, a wound mends within each of us.
Creating more space for us to bond together.

I’m so proud of him.
Making positive changes, battling his demons.
I feel him deeper than ever before.
His heart opens and I melt into it.

I am just over 1 month away from completing my 1 year plan!
I’ve found my reference points.
I have a home, a man, a part-time service industry job.
I’ve spent the year doing what I never believed I could.
I’ve cooked, painted, started a garden.
I’ve paid off half of my credit card.
I’ve started playing Baritone, Ukulele.
I’ve written my own songs.
I’ve performed my own writing in front of audiences!
I’ve started this blog!
I spent this year eating what scared me / eating what I wanted!
I live my life doing what I used to fear / run from.
I am the medicine, it’s all within me.
I trust!

I’ve become a woman!
I’m so proud!

What’s next is a mystery!
I am ready to work!
I’m healthy, strong and ready to go for it!
I will return to Tierra Mitica in January for the Advanced work!
I pray to leave with new motivation and a clear vision!
A concrete plan of how to move forward with my dreams.

I want to be a performer!
I want to share my voice with the world.

I’m ready to come out from my hiding.

Phoebe Dykstra will return in a whole new way!

Get prepared world!!!!

Until then... 2 more solid months of work before I return to Peru!
Gotta make it count!

Work at The Ground!
Jog and/or Yoga everyday!
Write!

Be the best fucking woman to my man!

... try to take over the world!!! Muahahaha!