One Of The Girls

I didn’t expect to ever be “one of the girls” - this was something that was scary for me since I was young, though at the same time it’s what I truly wanted. I never felt like I belonged, calling my mom from slumber parties in the middle of the night in sheer terror, begging her to come take me home, calling mom from cheerleading camp asking her to come pick me up - being among a group of girls with no escape scared me, the voices that told me they didn’t like me were so loud in my head and I felt I couldn’t connect because I was “different”. Whether I have finally found my girls that are just like me or I have finally chosen to belong is irrelevant. Today, though the fear still lingers, I choose to ignore the voices, pushing through my resistance. Today my heart is happy, feeling one with and being “one of the girls”.