And it turns out I don't need to go live in a cave, meditating for 20 years or give up sex and all my favourite foods.
In fact, the opposite is true!
What is true enlightenment?
Watch to find out!
* Big thank you to Susan Musgrave and Chelsea Barnicott at Haida Gwaii's 'Copper Beech House' for the steady housekeeping job this summer.
* Thanks momma and Tammi Lim for the helicopter ride.
* INCREDIBLY HUGE thank you to Adriaan van der Wart for the beautiful and intuitive camera work.
* The song featured in this video is "Sing To The Mountain" by Elephant Revival!
I can’t seem to find an image online to show you exactly, the vision I have of the girl that has been showing herself inside of me.
A technology to soon be invented, I am sure.
Vision to Google.
I’ll wait for my cheque.
So, she’s thin, pale white skin of course.
She’s got long, black, scraggly hair.
She’s in a spaghetti strap, tattered dress, think Paper Bag Princess.
Her bony fingers have claws that are now scratching the shit out of my insides.
She’s screaming, to be let out.
She makes me want to tear everything to pieces.
I entertain that she is there, could I free the energy?
Grab a nicely set dinner table and flip it over?
I visualize myself on the dance floor with my friends.
The music helps.
I tell her “I’m sorry, I don’t know how to help you.”
She’s wrestling the cage of my chest, pleading to be let out.
I crank the Icaros in my headphones, “why won’t they go any louder?”
I feel a sense of relief but the energy is building.
She’s on the floor of the cave, “Phoebe.”
She wants me to sing.
We all want to feel good but we all have things that make us feel BAD. 🥴
Some of these “things” live with us everyday! 😳
I lived with social anxiety for 25 years. 🥺
For my 31st birthday, I decided that enough is enough! 🥳
It’s time to feel GOOD! 😅
This is the story of me facing what makes me feel bad, my biggest PARADOX. 🐉
I’m happy this birthday, thank you for all the wishes!
Started the day being guided through a yoga session with my sister Erin.
While getting my ears flushed at the hospital, a possible “divine meeting” took place! TBD.
Spent the day updating my cocoon!
Mom helped me repaint my bedroom! Dad put cedar siding on my house, smells like a sauna!
We went for a drive on the beach, where I had dad go into the stink to get me a whale vertebrae! Too stink for my altar!
Going home now to have my favourite, taco salad!
Most birth days, I whine around because I am “alone”- Well, in typical Phoebe fashion, I worked with my subconscious this morning to remove that old limiting belief, once and for all!
What an awesome day and it’s only 9pm still!
"Wah Wah, this is difficult and life is hard!"
I work to playfully crumple that belief up and replace it with a truth that serves my happiness.
"IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE EASY!
IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE FUN!"
*If you can, please watch on IGTV, to help boost my views, so I can reach more people.*
I had a belief for most of my life that I wasn't good at ANYTHING.
What a pile of crap, right?
Well, after 31 years, I can say that I've officially SLAYED that nasty dragon!
Here's my story.
*** If this story made you FEEL something, you can encourage me with a $ TIP now!
Just scroll to the bottom of my story here:
Last year I wrote a song for a friend, my partner at the time.
I was proud, so in Phoebe fashion, I recorded myself singing and put it on YouTube.
I recently discovered that some people around where I live, know me as an internet meme, a joke.
Hearing this hurt my feelings and took me for a spin.
I now realize that those voices are not my friends.
I will only listen to voices that encourage me to do what I do and be who I want to be!
Here is my story, and may I present to you Argillite Kisses, acoustic.
"Don't need to read reviews, if you can't do the things I do." - Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran’s song and video has me sobbing, it’s so BEAUTIFUL.
Ed is a huge inspiration to keep it grounded and real.
I’m thrilled he’s in Hollywood, rippling his energy out.
My biggest dream has always been to be in a similar position, to ripple my energy out.
See you soon my friend.
After 8 years of staying silent, or giving a fluff response, when being asked the question:
"How Can I Love Myself?"
I now have an answer! (THANK THE HEAVENS!)
I have found a key and have been putting it to work!
I'm so happy to share this with you!
If you have been searching, join me, in my latest 'How To Live A Mythic Life' video.
I LOVE YOU!!!
We got this.
Love, Phoebe Dykstra