And just like that, I have everything I've ever dreamed and more.

I am writing this update from the swanky hospital lounge, in Prince Rupert Regional Hospital. I am having a green smoothie as I wait for my husband to finish up his shift. I am happy, truly happy.

My whole life, I've wanted to be light. I thought to be as happy as I dreamed to be, I needed to be light for the whole world, so I strived to be a star.

Wanting to be a star has driven every choice I have made, since I was a young girl. Wanting to be famous is why I became a MuchMusic tv host.

Last month I was faced with a choice.

To continue to allow the celebrity on my shoulder to rule my life, or choose the man who was now kneeled in front of me.

Strive to be light for the world, however that may look... Or choose to give all of my light to this man.

I chose him.

And now, after years of struggles, fighting for my happiness, it all makes sense.

We got married right away, in Las Vegas and are making our way to Peru next month, for our shamanic wedding.

Once we celebrate in Peru and complete our advanced self development workshop with Happiness Research Centre, Tierra Mitica, we will make our way to South Africa to celebrate our love with my husband’s family!

My husband and I have been filming our mythic love story, and will be sharing it when the time is right!

We are up to some mythic shit, that we can't wait to share, but we are holding on to it, again, until the time is right!

With so much love,
Phoebe van der Wart

Riaan and I have completed the Enlightened Sex Manual and are now on to David D’s “The Way Of The Superior Man” and “Dear Lover”

Struggling a bit today, as we both are working against our previous programmings (me prominently in the masculine and him the feminine) but we know our true essence and are committed to this work, finding balance and are loving each other deeper, everyday.

💕🌷👑🌷💕

I still find it crazy, that 2 days after doing a hypnotherapy session around my Paradox of wanting to be alone vs. wanting to be 1 with...

I meet the first person who, I want to be with more than I want to be alone. My husband.

I will never underestimate the power of my beliefs, choosing them wisely.

#throwback

BEFORE

AFTER!!!

Reflecting on my past 2 years, as I prepare to head to California for My Mythic Voyage III

Reflect on the transformation, the life of this butterfly.
🦋

I walked down my stairs
With intention to find something to clear out
To my surprise
There he was, in his full glory

Only his front two hands
Were grasped around my throat
His expression was calm
As he had been there
Me, his puppet
For 25 years

His back two arms attached
And ran deep into the walls of my subconscious
He was a giant black cape for my back
His back body floated up and attached to the ceiling above my head

He knew it was time.

Without a fight
He took his hands from my throat
I then began to pull his darkness from both sides
Pulling pulling pulling
I pulled it out of the ceiling
I gathered his darkness into a bundle

*Squeeze*

I hugged it
“Thank You”

Into the box and out the door.

I was exhausted

I rubbed rose oil on the wounds
And watched them begin to heal

When I reached the top of my stairs
I voice firmly says:


“I think what you need is to get back out in the world.”
“I think what you need is to get back out in the world.”
“I think what you need is to get back out in the world.”

Until I get to fly off the island of Haida Gwaii, and start making my way to CALIFORNIA for my 3rd 'Mythic Voyage' workshop!

THRILLED for the ch-ch-ch-ch-changes that will take place!!!

I'm thinking about maybe even FILMING my journey for IGTV, yah?

A new work of art by the INCREDIBLE Rafael Oliveira Castro!

Title: Pacha mama
Technique: Acrylic on canvas *Available for purchase*
Measures: 120 x 90 cm
Year: 2019
Artist: Rafael Oliveira Castro * Magicart-Rafael-Oliveira-Castro-2058968861062912 *

​With the progress and changes of perspective that science and technology is getting the man is forgetting his reason to be as part of nature itself, this means that we do not only shake and exploit the resources, but is forgetting the purpose of Every being alive.
It is the responsibility of man and woman to take care of all life, from bees to the spirits of the mountains, man or woman of knowledge must create harmony on the face of the pacha mama. For this first they need an internal balance "internal peace" this is achieved with the different practices that each culture offers. Connecting with the wisdom we have been inside since times, she connects us with the spark of life, with our being and for such reason we want to connect with our ancestors.
Mother Earth (Pacha Mama) to the care of life...........................................................................