To A Woman I Know - performed on Haida Gwaii

I signed myself up to perform a poem I wrote, at Valentino Cabaret, the local Valentine's Day fundraiser / talent show.
I am terrified.
I know I'm here to use my voice. 
I am stronger than my fear.
I arrive at the venue, my mom saved me and Verne a seat. 
I slump in my chair.
It is so bright.
Busy.
I can't see.
I can't hear. 
How am I going to get up on stage?
"You are on 3rd."
I go to the bathroom.
Everything is spinning.
My friend Raven Anne grabs me, "Are you okay? Are you on something?"
How am I going to get up on stage?